A world of dreams or a dream world?

I haven't posted on this blog in a while, but that does not mean I haven't had any interesting dreams. This post, however, isn't about any particular dream, but more about something that googling hasn't helped me with in the least (or maybe I just wanted to make a post about it and really I'm just being lazy).

So, for a long time, probably ever since I was a child, I've had reoccurring dreams. The only thing about these dreams is that they all take place inside their own world, or setting that is consistent from dream to dream. Sometimes even the people in the dreams are the same, and even some situations.

For example, say I dream about a lush tropical island with a few people that you can remember, at least their faces. We can have an adventure on this island, like a volcano will erupt or a storm will blow in. Maybe even vampires attack us, just whatever. I will have this dream again eight years later, but I will remember the entire dream and change it because I know what is going on and I want to change the outcome. Sometimes I will even try to tell the other people "hey you should probably move or you'll die".

I have these dream worlds or dream places that are so familiar to me that I can navigate in them, I even have favorite places that I used to wish that I would go when I went to sleep. One in particular is a place where a shallow looking river runs through this dark forest. Sometimes I walk alongside this river or I ride down it on a log or something. I have memories of this forest, how it looks when I look up to the sky and see the sun showing through the branches, and how thick, lush and uninhabited this place seems. The river twists and turns and has rapids and seems to go on forever.

Sometimes even these places are linked to each other, and I can sometimes go from one place to the next by following the path I took previously. There is a bridge in one dream that crosses over this huge body of water. I think it is either a bay or a large lake. This bridge takes me to a forest where there is a lake where there are a lot of abandoned houses and the land slopes down to the shores. Usually there are a lot of people playing in the lake, children and people in boats.

If I walk along one street it will take me to this one house that is just...creepy. It is old, and rotting with roots and tangled vines growing in and around it. I believe it is haunted. Anytime I visit this house I end up running from something and I have to escape from the top floor. It is not a good place to be. If I choose to walk down beside the lake, I can follow the edge of the lake and end up on a foot path that will lead to a couple of places; one of them being a sort of hilly clearing in the forest that I think has a couple of houses in it. One of them is up on a hill and is very nice. There is a small pond below it and ducks. Somewhere nearby is another smaller house. I think this one is empty. There is something about this house but I can't remember what it is at the moment.

In any case, it would be hard to remember this stuff if I had not dreamed about it several times. Each time I visit my places, I make concious decisions as to where I want to go and what I want to do.. But, not all of the places I dream about are non-existent. I dream a lot of my childhood houses. The first house is big, brown and located in the woods far away from people. I usually either end up staying inside, or wandering in the woods around the house. If I stay inside, there is usually a reason why, such as tornadoes or something that is after me. This isn't usually the case though. I'm usually outside and wandering around, sometimes as a wolf or as myself as I am in my dreams. The other house is located in a neighborhood and subject to different rules I suppose. I am hardly ever inside the house. I am usually outside and usually either trying to get home or I'm lost on one of the nearby streets trying to get back home. The neighborhood in my dreams is also consistent, with one of them ending up by a lake (there isn't one like that nearby). There is also usually a house right next to ours on a hill overlooking our yard. I think this house is abandoned but beautiful.

I have no idea what other people dream about, but I have a theme my dreams usually follow. Well, I say a theme but there are several themes. One is wandering or being lost. I'm trying to find my way home. I don't think I ever do find my way home. There is never really ever a sense of panic. Another theme is forest and water or both. Most of my dreams contain these two things. As for animals or symbols, I usually only see wolves, turtles, cats and fish. I never really have dreams that are well, meaningless, no dreams of going shopping or finding a million dollars. I've had dreams like that, but only when I was very little.

The only dreams I've had that are not reoccurring but I know mean something or are definite messages of some sort are the paranormal dreams. These dreams are usually something like me inside my house with something chasing me. Whatever is chasing me isn't visible nor is it anything like you would imagine or see in a movie. It's slamming doors, creaking walls, things flying off the wall at me. It's a sense of dread and panic as you are trying to get away from whatever this is, but knowing there is no where to hide because it can just come through the walls to you. It's hard to explain or even express house terrifying these dreams are. I've experienced very few paranormal things in my life, and I'm always a bit of a skeptic. These dreams usually come right after I have one of my sudden urges to see and hear or sense paranormal things (because I don't...at least I think I don't). It's like something is saying "Well, if you get what you ask for, can you handle this feeling or a situation like this?" and after that I say (and still say) no, even though I wish I were more sensitive, honestly I think I'm much better off the way I am.

It seems lately I've been dreaming of people that seem familiar but I've never met them before in this life. I feel comfortable and happy with them, as if I'm meeting them again after a long separation. These dreams are really the reason why I'm writing this whole blog post which looks like a bunch of ramblings by now.

I can have normal dream interpretations or I can have alternative explanation for this all. Really, I would like to know if anyone can relate to all this, and maybe even shed some insight on to why I have dreams that are like this.

Running again

I just had another long dream, something about traveling around in a car with girls trying to get away from an entity or something really evil that was following us around. It started off at my old brown house and possessed my nephew and I left my sister there and my mom and tried to get away with my dad but he ran back to go be with them in that house. Then i tried to go alone to a neighbors but i realized when i got there they didn't live there anymore. I mean in a dream they would have right? why would my mind insist on telling me no they don't live there anymore? So I started walking back the way I came and somehow i met more people and we decided to just get away. and i dunno where we got one but we got a car and more people and stated traveling around. It me, the driver, and 2-3 more girls in the back. I think there were also 2 boys, 1 was the brother of the girl and another guy i knew from school. We went to the house of this old lady I know and when we got there it was pitch black and it looked torn up a bit. So we walked inside and we didn't see anyone and then in the back we saw someone wrapped up in a blanket on the bed and we all screamed. We decided to leave because we knew we couldn't stop anywhere. We all got back into the car but the driver was still in there and we couldn't just leave her. So I said  for two girls to go back for her. When they got her back she had blood on her shirt and she said to me "They decided the best way to torment me was to throw things at me, and follow me around with things". It had stabbed her in the chest. but not fatally. So we all left again and started traveling old back roads and stopped by a place that had a creek. Last thing I remember was saying to the girls let's take a bath in the stream (we hadn't had time to bathe in days because we could NEVER stop anywhere). In the stream were small fish and leeches which I freaked out about but then I realized if I wanted the stream to be totally clean without leeches, it would be. So i decided it was, and it was. Then Scott called and I woke up..

Traveling and Lost

I started off the dream in a room with my husband and his family (mainly his little brother) and we were taking turns playing a game that had magic and other things in it.

Later on I end up taking a trip to a store and for some reason I just happened to have a magic wand. I met a group of people there and I conjured food for them. The store owners weren't pleased so I said let's move somewhere else.

We moved and I conjured more food and ice cream for them. Finally it was time to go home and we took a school bus. The bus dropped me off somewhere in my neighborhood. This is where my usual problem of finding my way home reared it's head.

I went from house to house heading in (what I thought) was an eastern direction. Everyone was eating the same things and no one seemed to mind that I was barging into their houses. No one spoke English.

At one point, which I feel is worth mentioning, I got to swing around in a small bamboo forest. It was very fun.

I had a small hand held device that showed me that the entire time I thought I was going east (towards my house) I was actually going some other direction.

I never made it home, but at least this time I wasn't anxious or afraid.

Today's movie like dream

This dream starts off as some sorta chick flick for lack of a better description. I think there are about 4-5 females who are both women and birds. Maybe they were represented as both but at this point I can't really remember that part very well. All I know is that they spent a lot of time together doing funny things, especially as birds, both growing together; laughing, love, crying, all that jazz so to speak.

Now the next part was like the ugly part 2 of a movie that really should have never been made, and no credits rolled between the two "movies". In this part only one of the birds is shown, and the perspectives are skewed between first and third person (as a lot of dreams are, aren't they?).

This starts off with one of the girls (me) living in a house that I am familliar with and not familiar with, basically a mesh of my first old house and somewhere else I've never been. I think she (I) lives with another person, maybe two females, but they do and don't feel like they are related, so maybe they are roommates. From here on out I'm referring to her in the 3rd person.

She lives a regular quiet life with work, her hobbies, chatting on the internet and browsing for new music and whatnot.

Then two men appear. I don't really remember where they came from. I do know that one of them was (or had been) an artist that made beautiful prints of animals (mainly foxes) in black in white with backgrounds of flowing vines or forest. These other man of the pair is what I could call evil. The other one was just being led around and did whatever he was told. I guess he was unhappy with his life and sought another one with this evil man.

The two men harassed and attacked the young woman in her own home. I got the feeling that there was nothing she could so about them being there; someone had let them in and that someone wasn't there (anymore?). They started by taking away all her things. The evil man did not like the fact that she had choices or hobbies or that she talked to people on her computer or played games. He became possessive of her and took all her things when she wasn't around and burned them. Then he told her about it, waited til she got angry and then beat her. She found out that the other man was an artist and asked him how someone like him could do such a thing to her and do what this other man said when he had made such beautiful art. I don't think she got a reply.

The two men followed her around constantly and wouldn't leave her alone. She tried to lock herself in her room but the evil man ripped the door from the wall. I remember someone telling him he shouldn't do that or the owners of the house would get angry and find out what they were doing to the girl. The girl fought them off the best she could, especially when they eventually kept trying to rape her. They never did, but they did beat her and terrorize her even  more.

In the end she thought she had given them the slip. They weren't around for some reason, probably part of the dream I forgot. She felt relief and was in her house looking out of the window. Outside it was a normal sunny day, all the houses around where she lived were quiet and peaceful. I think she thought she had locked them outside or gotten rid of them. Then she noticed something was wrong in her room, I think maybe something was missing.

The girl ran at an amazing speed to where she thought the problem was or where she thought she was going to be safe and as she was about to run through a doorway the other man caught her and pinned her down and the evil man stepped out from the shadows.

The evil man laughed and straddled her and in his hand was a something like a small surgical knife. He asked her "What date do you wanted carved into you today?" and then the whole dream sort of panned out to where a lot of police officers were watching as the guy started to carve all kinds of deep cuts into her flesh as she screamed. It became more and more violent and even the police were having trouble watching what he did to her.

She died of course.

After that they somehow never caught the two guys. What happened was they had disguised themselves as police to escape detection and had actually helped with the investigation. At the end the two of them were standing in the backyard laughing about the whole thing because it had been very easy to get away. The evil man was dressed as a detective while the other was disguised as a woman. The other man said that it had been fun and he was going to leave now but the evil man killed him but somehow doing it with telepathic powers of some sort. Either way, the other man melted and died; disappeared.

The epilogue is that the girl is in the backyard, reincarnated as another girl. She is squatting by a pond with fish inside it and autumn leaves are falling in as well as various insects. A fish comes up to eat one and she catches another fly to throw in and it doesn't land where she thought it would. Soon a family of cats come up next to her and she recognizes them as the women she had known (the birds) and apologized to them for what had happened (apparently to all of them, the mother cat and her kittens were the reincarnation of her friends I guess). She said this time they would live a happier life.

That's the end. All on 2 hours of sleep.

Babies, theft and annoying people

Ohhh, a weird dream.

Dreamed about trying to feed a baby through all sorts of conditions. The baby varied in size from a regular baby to an action figure. Tried to feed it outside, in the mud, in a pond, while people were trying to steal the baby, as a peasant, in a house, while people were looking, while people weren't looking, at night, during the day, etc etc.
I think the whole point was that I never actually could feed the baby. The messed up part  was that when I actually did get to where I could feed the baby, a weird sound woke me up. Twice. The sound of a something like a baby cry in my room (well it wasn't unlike a baby's cry). Normally this would freak me out but I was very determined not to wake up and roll around fruitlessly in my bed again for hours.

For the last part of the dream I had a lot of stuff stolen from me by some sort of thing. This thing was a small human that lived in the back yard of someone's house and I don't know these people. We later made him 'fess up and he put everything on a table. I got back some of what was stolen except some games that had also gone missing. Apparently some sort of little monkey type thing said she had because her master told her to. So a friend of mine said he would give her his special chocolate on a rope if she told us where she put them. She agreed and she started to give hints where she hid them (all over the house in various rooms). Then more people came over and my mom said to stop looking for stuff when the hosts were welcoming new people. These people annoyed me. We slept in a room in the back of the house and they said "oh they are giving up and leaving so we can have these nice beds now". I never got to look for the games and my mom said we were leaving that night.

Then I woke up.

Monday morning and a short post

Just had a little dream about walking around outside with my husband and seeing deer, bears, and friendly wolverines with white fur on their backs. For some reason I had put my hair clips on the barbed wire fence and I was trying to get them back. This wolverine felt that it was his duty to walk along beside us, so we couldn't get to the clips quickly. He never tried to bite or anything. He just seemed friendly and curious. By the way, the view on the other side of the fence was magical. I wanted to climb over the fence really bad but Scott said we shouldn't because that is trespassing. Little did he know that it was just a dream and you can do whatever you want! Ugh, I should really work on my lucid dreaming for stuff like this.

Then dreamed about being in a classroom and feeling really off, like my head was fuzzy. We had to do a sheet of problems and I couldn't figure out how to do them at all since it seemed like it was in the form of an IQ test with a bunch of left brained crap. I'm terrible with numbers and math; I have no patience for them. I think I loathe them.

Politics
Most Religions
Math

= hate.

I can't wait til we can move further away from people than we are now. I wish I could dream of that.
I didn't write any this weekend because it's impossible to get anything done with my husband home all the time and it's just a big hassle to get my alone time. (He won't be in a different room from me EVER.) It's cute, but for things that require 100% of my attention, it doesn't help much.

Spectacular white bathroom and destroying a laptop

• color white
• my sister
• cats
• painting
• travel
• my mom
• cleaning supplies
• living stuffed animals
• van
• laptop
• restaurant
• kitchen
• bathroom
• hotub
• my husband
• anger
• sadness

The first part of the dream consisted of me actually working out how to paint different pictures and what techniques I should use. Pretty boring since that is all I was doing. I actually woke up after this part and thought 'well, that will be easy to remember'.

Second part, probably after I went back to sleep was about my laptop and me. I don't really remember where I was, it seems like I might have  been in college or going to meetings somewhere with tables and chairs. The only thing that really happened was that someone or something made me really angry and I destroyed my laptop.

I had just recently gotten one, I don't really remember much of this part, I just know it was very new and I was very happy with it (probably mirrors my waking feelings). I was doing some sort of test and part of the test was either I had to type something or plug in a keyboard. Yes, I know laptops have built in keyboards. I am typing on one now, but in my dream my laptop was more like a very small PC.

Anyway, all the other people around me had theirs all plugged in and I realized I couldn't find my regular keyboard. I looked all through the backpack that I wore to keep all my laptop things and I found a bunch of old keyboards and was about to give up when I found the only other USB keyboard we have (which we do, the one I was looking for is broken in real life, and the one I found we use on the PC). By the time I got back to my "laptop" I probably only had a few seconds left to plug in my keyboard. I couldn't fit it into the little USB port and time was up. I lost out on something because of something so stupid.

Cue the roiling anger and fireworks. I destroyed the laptop, cracking the screen and stepping on the keyboard. I was fully aware that I had just gotten this and it had cost quite a bit to get it. I didn't care. I wanted to destroy something. In the same vein of my usual (and not quite straight) thinking, I felt better destroying something I valued.

A little while later after I had calmed down, I felt bad about what I did and went back to my husband and told him what I did. For some reason by this time, the laptop had already been sent off to be examined. He told me what they were doing and how much they were going to charge to return the laptop back to me in one piece with all the information and files I had moved onto it. It was more than twice the cost of the laptop brand new! He said he opted to just rebuild another one for me and ordered it. I remember being upset because I hadn't been part of the building so I had no idea what he did. He said he made it exactly like the other one and I thought to myself that I would have liked to tweak a few things.

Yes. It's my inner brat!

Next part of my dream I was traveling with my family, the only people I can confirm that were there for sure was my mom and my youngest older sister (if I mention a sister in my dreams it will probably be her). I have no idea where we were going, but we had a lot of stuff and all my cats were with us. I don't think there is hardly a dream that I have where there ISN'T a cat.

As usual, I only remember a bit of this dream. We arrived at a place I used to play at as a child. This place still exists in real life and I actually kind of miss it. It's out in the country with cows and horses; pastures and trees.  I think we needed to stop for supplies and use the restroom, or at least my sister and I did. We don't speak to these people anymore, so I was just kinda standing around waiting for someone to tell me where we had permission to go when my sister said 'hey we can go in here'.

Here was a sort of apartment the people built there for their daughter to live. It was in the back of a workshop and it ran the entire back length of the building. I had a friend that had lived there and I remember both how it looked before it was an apartment and afterward. I think I was always fascinated with it.

I wasn't sure we should be going into this apartment as I remember people lived there, but when I stepped inside I was shocked. The entire apartment was changed. Gone was the carpet and furniture and pretty much everything that had made it look like an apartment. The entire thing was redone in pure white. Pure white tiles on the walls and the floors, the ceilings and windows and the mini kitchen were done in white. Everything was pristine and pure and shining. The most amazing thing was the biggest hot tub thing in the very center of the main room. It was so deep that even though the most bottom part was filled with water, my sister was completely submerged pulling a plug to empty the rest of the water out. (I have no idea why she did this. When she did this all I could think was "Great now she's soaking wet").  I actually told her how shocked I was at the entire place.

This place eventually morphed into the kitchen from my old house. We ended up finding a toilet in the adjoining room, so the layout was basically the old kitchen. I think by the time I found the toilet she had already used it. At some point between then and when I needed to go, we had to fend off a very annoying living stuffed animal that kept bothering us. I think she ended up putting it outside through the backdoor.

My mom came in and started fussing about the place not being spotless or something equally silly. She said she wanted to leave soon and she had all sorts of cleaning supplies with her and asked us to hurry and finish up so we could leave.

We both left, and we ended up walking down wooden steps towards the back of a white van, and I could see all kinds of cats wandering around outside. I only thought of how long it would take to round them up because I guess they let them out to do their cat business.

I don't remember anything else, I think I woke up.